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You know I dont even know how all this is coming across to any of you–I know that for me it wasnt hard any of it–well not after I got use to it–I think I will try to tell you a little of what was going on when all this started with me–before I knew to much of any thing I knew I had a friend that would help me and teach me –at the time I was in need of such a friend–I had not started any schooling yet so I suppose I was pretty young–I recieved alot of understandings of things that I thought was just so–that knowing and understanding got me through alot of things that otherwise I dont think I could have lived through–as I got older the understanding was there but some how my friend got more distant from me–after awhile I had very little memory of him–but things would always happen –odd and strange things that I didnt really tell to many people about–I found that I couldnt really tell anyone the things I experienced –or saw or even knew–I didnt seem to fit any where either–so I just had a wonderful time alone–I tell you the things I got to experience and see and know and feel were amazing–I was never sure of the why,who,what of any of it –then I began to get in coming–I mean everybody duck in coming–and I wasnt able to make heads or tails of any of it but it didnt stop or slow down–so I had to try to work it all out–well to make a long story short–I did –after we got it going — between god and me–I had to follow instruction–it has never mattered how dumb I have to look and I always do–thats another story–I always know when I am suppose to do a certain thing–I never really even know till it is happening–this makes life very interesting let me tell you–I have called him every name in the book–I have quit so many times it makes my head spin–I guess the hardest thing was getting the stuff coming in –to be something I could put words on–it was actually rediculous at times–I mean I wasnt getting it and he was doing some really bizzare stuff –hell some times I had to just bust out laughing cause of the shit we were doing–no one would have understood what the hell was going on–there were times I would look like a friggin idiot cause the jerk would leave off if someone showed up–any way thats kind of how things have been going as long as I can remember–I do have a job to do–I know that no pone else can do it–I do know that every thing will be fine– it always is–and I will probably look silly most of the time while Im doing it–but thats the way it always seems to go–so I just wanted to tell you that–before I go to much farther–I have some things that I have been seeing coming in –but its not totally in yet–but I just wanted to tell you some times I get jumbled inside–and things will come out that way–not always–there are times when it is like a well oiled machine–then there are times I am running on empty with flat tires my lights dont work an its raining and my wipers dont wipe–I dont worry though because I am very well backed by some pretty big guns and I dont mean weapons–I actually cant screw anything up which is great Im thinking–not only that I have a loop I call it–inside my head I guess you would say–that way when I miss something I can put it on the loop and it gets back around sooner or later–its great for me because alot of this stuff is fast–when I just seeing one another one goes zooming by–I dont know about anyone else but I would of thought all this would have been alot better planned out– you know–well there you have it—I feel alot better now about all this–I hope I did what I was thinking I was doing –or else I just wasted a whole lot of time for nothing– I will try harder I dont think that works but I will try — thank you so much for your time and understanding—we get to do more training today–just wait till we tell you about that– thanks again PIXY AND THE CREE-A-TOR
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