ARE YOU NOT GETTING IT

November 24, 2016

ARE YOU NOT GETTING IT

ok about the pipeline — do you not know that the best way to control people is by controlling thier water and food — its not at all about what you are meant to believe thats going on — its about what your not suppose to notice — and your not noticing that in a minute water will be something we cannot get — why is collecting rain water a crime — do you know there is a thing called harpp that controls the weather — its not that its not raining its that they are not allowing it to rain — do you think that these spills are not on purpose — people in flint know — do you think you are not going to be affected — do you not know or do you not believe that there are people doing these things to you — and yes i mean you — i dont care who you are or what you do or dont do — you are going to be affected — an its on purpose that this is going on during thanks giving — do you think that you will not see the cost of water go up to 500 a gallon — instead of everyone getting busy for the holidays — maybe people should get busy uncovering whats really going on –im just saying — an there you have it

thank you
pixie an dude

DID YOU MISS ANYTHING TODAY

November 10, 2016

get-robbed

So pretty much we all got up this morning an were robbed — an the robbery is going to continue all day until we lay our heads down to go to sleep — ok so we have a new guy thats going to be our president — some of us are happy an some of us are not happy about this — some of us are worried — this is a time where we are all together in a mess and we all know it — the fact that any one is knowing that theres a mess is immense and also its some thing that as far as time and events go — this has never happened ever — so this is actually a first — an by the way there are other first things going on also that are catastrophic that none of you are aware of —  and this makes me nuts — ok now just look at this right here for a minute — before you can do anything say paint your house or make a sandwich tie your shoelace — you have to think about it first — correct — so then thought is always first — so there you are — there we all are — an there is no way around the fact that we are form everyone of us — lets forget for a minute how — but lets go to the fact that if we are form right now — then we were a thought first an lets jump right over that an go with — exactly whos thought were we — i think we can all agree that it wasnt my thought or yours — i didnt think up trees either — now you can go ahead an try to know all the shit that was put there for you to know an all the shit that a person with all the identical parts we were all born with somehow got a special part that you or i didnt get — that knows stuff you dont an have no way of knowing neither do they — by the way — tell you an me this is what happened an this is this an that is that — an this is what you can know cause they said and this is what you an me are suppose to do — because this page of that book says an this guy was suppose to tell us stuff an what to do because — he knows how an its ok  for that guy to do anything he wants cause we dont know any thing — let me just ask you this — is the guy knowing all this stuff that we dont know — is he the guy that has uncovered an found — the mountains of proof that prove by god all the stuff he says oh an dose  — an lets not forget for one minute that in the books and bibles an scriptures — that were found in caves and under rocks and where ever the proof says –they all came from — all ended up together so whoever managed to take scrolls an remnants an stuff etched on rocks — an was able to put in order on each  page  — oh lets not forget the eye witness and sightings that can be found in the books them selves as more proof of the things in the books that all that stuff for sure will show us that we should not even question any thing because we are to have faith and believe and have testimony that all of that stuff is  in there — an if we were to look for it in all these ancient stuff that was published by random house — that states in older bibles that the queen herself approved or not all the words in it — so that should help us in our belief of the words of the scriptures and for sure all the stuff god said in that time when he was speaking with the guys that he wanted to tell them who he was gonna cut off and who he was gonna allow and help get rich and  his promises and to make sure that there is proof of a bunch of stuff — he wants to make sure that these guys let us all know that he thinks we are all sinners — that he would just as soon do another flood but he wont — but hes gonna stop talking to us — an he will  get a son an send him an we can tell him an he will do the talking for us  —  i dont know about you guys but i get it i wouldnt talk to us either if some chick ate a apple off my tree —   thats just in  one book and alot more each section of the globe — you know all the marked an separated  areas like usa russia Iceland germany — you know where each marked off section has its own stuff thats not anything like any of the other sections — different language clothes — different ways of doing things — and arent we all glad because we all are kept up to date about all the stuff the other marked off areas are doing you know all the bad stuff they all have going on and all of us need to make sure we are all safe from each other — hell  if the rest of the world wasnt so fucked up i bet it would be easy to have a world dance or something or we could do maybe a world garden together — with a theme maybe — like our garden feeds the world — we could even give it a name like world garden of Eden — but since we are gonna not even notice we are been robbed — you know the stuff we all dont have because it was taken from  eons ago — an replaced with everything that is ours today — well ok we can forget the poison stuff that allows us a slow certain death that replaced what was water — im not sure how many today have ever tasted or experienced real water — it was wonderful — an it was alive and it tasted wonderful an when you drank it or bathed in it — it did stuff to you it would make your skin an hayr soft — an when you drank it your body would completely come more alive — but at some point they were successful in destroying the entire natural water filtering and renewing system of the entire globe — one of them or a team of them figured out — that they could control all life on the globe with what it needs to live on — the two biggest is air and water — and by quietly doing little things that no one would think much of or completely lie an do things — like destroying all walks of native life — natives know and have communication with the globe and all things of nature — then you would affect the air supply — im not positive but i think all the air needed by everything is supplied by a living organism — its called the rain forest — if im not mistaken i think oil and big pharma are almost completely finished destroying the rain forest — well killing it — you see all the things that are alive they are trying to kill — now you may have your own idea of things that may cause you to have mayor conflict with the things i try to tell you — if you do you are you are having a mayor internal battle being fought– that is very real because — they also know the best way to build an army is to create an army where the soliders fight them selves — how you train them is to make sure that everything they have and know is what you let them have — but you let them believe they are in control their lives and everything they are doing — you do not ever let them see that you have given them everything — you gave them thier choices — you gave them all the knowledge they have — you built their institutions — you provided thier rights and thier wrongs — you provided them with what to feel and even the correct way to deal with those feelings — you condition them very young to follow you in grain in them to obey and then you make sure that there is only one thing they know — they can count on — you let them know fear — thats how you  build an army — oh you make sure they see everything new to them is some form of evil and its coming from the devil –now if you were to look at your choices — what are your choices of for gods or devils — how about life is your choice death — oh i forgot  you dont get a choice — well ok how about where you live — you may have a problem when i tell you where i get my information — that my information is given to me from the creator of all creation who wanted to know why he needs  a name so i said ok dude — an i tried to explain he might do better if he had a name — because pretty much everyone has anything and everything that he deals with thier guy an hes got a name its god an he has a bunch of other stuff — ok they dropped the l out of gold so people dont know they are worshiping gold still — but you would think when they god on the most evil thing there is– money that people wouldnt connect any dots but i dont think they even question why the one god we all have is actually part of our money — as well as the pyramid the all seeing eye the phoenix that its the one dollar bill — that has two actually real seals on it — that are sealing some thing on or in each dollar that its the only bill that does not have a building on the back of it — and if you counted all the feathers thier is 13 all the bricks 13 and so on and you know that the phonix was burnt to ashes and came back to life from its own ashes — im not sure about the banner in its mouth — lusha just got here with dinner driving her car that someone stole her sticker off of — which really doesnt help her with the things she is trying to do to help dude an the rest of us — that are trying save what is real — an locate the truth that was stold – what it was made to look like — an about the robbery and what might be missing — lusha wants me to make sure that i write down what i said earlier today —  i said that magnificent could be right in front of you and you will never see it — and there you have it thanks lusha your doing really wonderful things

this with hope  thank you

PIXIE  AN  DUDE

 

 

 

CHECK THIS OUT

November 8, 2016

I NEED TO ASK YOU GUYS SOMETHING — are you spam — I have been informed from other writers that the comments I had approved on my site are spam — they informed me that they know this because they get the same ones I was told to check the number of visitors against the number of comments — well I did and the comments were a much larger number than number of visitors — so I decided  to not put them out on my site — actually I dont think anyone should be to concerned about my site as no one really comes here — you know I am at a lose as to why there would be spam comments — what would be the point — if anyone knows why could you let me know what benefit spam comments bring — I am sad because I was happy my stuff helped someone — some how — you know those comments made me feel good and like a writer — it felt like you were my friends — if you did leave a comment I thank you — if you took the time to come here I thank you — if you have read something I wrote and it helped you in someway I am very glad — this is the strangest thing about me writing anything at all — I am educated as far as the second or third grade — I am a tomboy — I have never read at all an I have never read a book from start to finish — almost everything I do read I find that what the writers writing about is something the writer knows nothing about — its like ok im going to write about lawn mowers — and you read the whole book an its all about the hair removal or squirrels — when I start writing I have no idea what Im writing about an I never read what I write — I just think its real wierd that I write — oh you know what my mind is a criminal — when I look at anything my mind trying to hatch some sinister plan about it — and we are looking at a piece of pumpkin pie — I mean its ridiculous what I have had to deal with all my life — with my brian always trying to make everything a jail sentence — an all that stuff my brian wants to do — I actually have to deal with everything from start to the get away car — you may not think this is a very big deal — or that it can be dealt with easily — well if you had to wait while your mind did an entire plan on how to put your foot prints in the nieghbors newly poured patio or the complete plot with the hideout an everything get away car and how to fence the goods after we rob the avon lady — the sad thing about this is pretty much you are stuck with the brian you were born with — theres no trading it in for a new model — no up grades nothing — you cant walk in some where an ask for a blue brain because you hate the color yellow — I have had wonderful dreams where we were able to exchange our brains — you know where I could trade with a criminal whos brain did sunsets you know what I mean — I wonder how many people besides me that really dont like thier brain — Im thinking theres alot — I have been in alot of situations where I am at a total lose as to what to do because I didnt put us there my stupid brain put us there an it decided to go blank all of a sudden — well Im going to go for now — it looks like we are going to spend the day robbing parking meters — and there you have it —

 

thank you

 

PIXIE  AN  DUDECREATION

THERES A GROUND MONTY

November 6, 2016

an there you have it — now lets see  — is everyone happy with how they want things to be — or how they think things should be — you all have your hands in there some where —  we have just about everything and everyone — so since we are all here — lets make sure that we got it all — ok lets start top to bottom maybe — well theres god and theres the devil saints and sinners — the innocent – well we have to go this way with that —  ok we are going to hold onto that for a minute — you know if you can see everything you kind of know its basically all the same damn thing — correct or do you think every thing is a bunch of different stuff — you would be kind of correct but not really — the thing is you can not have one with out the other good bad– the bad isnt bad by its self — by its self bad is not bad —  its something else — that becomes bad when some thing  shows up that is totally different than it — opposite — you can not have just one anything — dark light — day night — up down — opposites — which are each one side of a whole something — which is reflection  is the opposite again two sides — like something has to be there  to cast a shadow — but a shadow is nothing — oh theres alot more to this stuff but not right now — the shadow is part of whatever is making it  or else its not there — on a level we can not visulize everything is being where it is — because you have to have a not there to have a there — so is there a one —  yes  there is — idea — thought — its where you can have a thought by itself well no someone has to think a thought — so whats the one thing — its energy its all the same thing — it also has to be a part of everything or  nothing  isnt there — well an theres a difference there — nothing can be  part of energy — but energy has to be in everything — we can pretty much do a bunch of stuff to  everything but we can not do anything to eneregy — we are delusional if we think we control energy — you know there are people running around thinking that they made god and shit into words and bound them in the bible — nice try — firstly to do stuff like that you would need some kind of power to do stuff  — well what does power need to be anywhere —  it needs energy  — so if anyone thinks they are doing anything with their power — whats really going on is  —  is enrgy  giving power its power — so energy is holding its self prisoner — these guys think they know what life an death are — you see this is the problem every where — nothing is at all what you think it is  —  you think you know death because you think you know life — well i got news for all of you — ok the major requirement to die — would be you have to be alive in order to die — this is correct  right — well we didnt do alive yet — now try an wrap your head around that — while i ask — so exactly who are all the dead guys an how did all that happen —  the thing here is if your gonna put your hand into something — its only fair that everyone has a clear view of what everything is — so it goes like this — as far as what your suppose to know — the things your allowed to find and discover  and educate your selves with — well we have god 6 day 7 day stuff then flooding  and apples and adam then casting down to be a snake or are we the snake ok ill say it the devil — you got a bunch of comings an goings angels and casting out or down an now we have demons — oh an people running around going off the chain in every direction — then we get to where we all need to be saved and jesus does that an then everythings almost ok but we are saved but just for a minute — because we are all gonna die because of an apple — and not only that if we screw up any more we will be put in hell like forever — i guess kind of like jail here — an theres proof cause that guy isnt walking an talking — so we will bury  his body but his living soul we are going to save — so his soul can get to heaven an live with god an come back an be someone else —  is that the basically how it goes thats your story an your sticken to it — if it was me i think i would ask for my money back —  but i can totally see where if that is the only information to go on — an there are no options — then there you are — except shit can happen an does all the time — what if some new stuff showed up —  what if god decided to speak up — an he says hold on there — they got everyone believing that god guy is me — they got everyone believing their dying — where the hell is all the stuff thats suppose to be here for these guys — what is all this crap — ok this is going to take a minute to see if any of this is even salvageable — so this group here stold all the information from everyone an then buried them all  — but they kept some of the young ones who wont remember — so the group would have workers — because in the information they stold they found out a bunch of stuff they wouldnt let any workers know about — then they could be around forever and they would control with fear and conditioning and would only let the workers live so long — and so here we all are — well firstly no one knows me so i do not have a name — next there are the other people the group that have been doing this to you workers for eons — do you know about how long an eon is — enough time to set your group up sweet — so there will only be one way for you to know some new stuff — is for you to unknow everything you know — because part of what you know right now — is that you will not allow anything thats different from what you know now — i can tell you right now what everyone of you know — and you all know and believe in the same thing — you all know you are going to die someday — basically that is your foundation  — going to heaven seeing god final rest — all that your foundation is your faith but you have faith you will see god and you will go to heaven — it goes like this when i die im going to be in heaven with god —  ok now this is whats going on and why — ok i will be speaking for the creator of all creation who no one knows especially those of you who know god — im going to call the creator of all creation dude — since he has no name — for your information so you know dude has never said shit to anyone beside me an never will again — after this he will be speaking face to face — but until then i have been given the authority to speak for him — and also i am following instructions — so i dont waver — i am suppose to communicate certain things at certain moments — there are only two things i  know other than those two things i can know nothing — one is that i am beloved and the second thing i can know is everything is fine — but since im a girl an short an have no magic wand and cant levitate — and that i deal mostly with shit that isnt there  — i got to tell you with some of the stuff that comes in — even the fly by stuff — if you mix what comes in with whats happening out here its saying some big time shit — i can see it but i dont know what the stuff is out here — i guess its like thats not that without this — theres a very intense thing coming in and it says this — dude needs everybody to like duck right now cause everyone gets to make it — but not everyone is staying — because they choose something else — for warning — dude says he will do this with gravity — so you know — the good thing about all of this is — if you know your suppose to an if you dont know its because you cant — well i guess im done with this — but i have to tell you — im thinking — so what i dont see  a very big deal deal here — ok if i didnt get this — its ok dont panic –i cant fuck nothing up — an nothings doing nothing until everyone every single one is fine — an i know for sure to go in any direction — from right here nothing will get any futher without — every single one — if one is missing none will go — you know it doesnt matter what it is —  if we are all helping no would need help — this goes here — three people in a pyrimid circle with a pendgaluim in the middle  can change our physical change our compass points — ok  thats what im looking at kind of — and there you have it — please try an understand the importance of glitter —

thank you

PIXIE  AN  DUDE

WAIT A COTTON PICKIN MINUTE

November 1, 2016

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IM CONCERNED

October 28, 2016

Well I am concerned about what I have been seeing so yesterday I stated Im concerned  —  I am concerned that people are being hurt an killed  ———          but thats nothing new —  did I tell you that my uncles going to buy a new truck  —  oh an there is this really cute guy I have been noticing that I think was looking at me         ——— I am concerned that   I am seeing that there are people who want to kill 90 something percent of  the people on this globe right now — not just that this is what they want but also that this was a plan that started awhile ago — that   — that plan awhile ago was put into action and every move being made in that direction was completely lied about — and that everything was disguised to look like things were all being done to save us from something happening or about to happen — that would be determental to us ——- oh my god someone bombed some buildings and we are not going to have someone who is jealous because of how good we have it — get away with coming over here an harming us and what we hold dear — we have to defend it — its our duty for some of us to go die for this —— hey theres a sale at kmart an there is going to be a 6 percent off but only for today ——  I saw the funnyest thing today  — this guy on a bike rammed right into the back of car an did he go flying ——- you know I think I need to stop eating carrots I think they give me gas ——– I am concerned that there are people in positions that have power over us whos goal is to control us — and will use any  means against us  reguardless of any thing we do — they pay other people to police even our thoughts that are trained to do what they are told and destroy all opposision anyway possible — and then put good ones with bad ones dress them exactly the same so we can not tell whos who —  I am concerned that there are people doing things in our name to other peoples inocent peoples around the entire globe bombing killing stealing lying in everyones face — I am concerned because I it seems like there are to many people about to be hit — an they dont even know something is swinging at them — I am concerned they cant even hear when your yelling for them to duck — I am concerned that at every way I turn theres a block —  thats stopping every glimmer of hope — Then I am concerned if I am knowing what I know if I am getting the things I am getting correctly — if I am doing what I am suppose to be doing —  Then I see in the middle of everything — things being how and what and who they are suppose to be being — and then another — an another and where Im at and Im there then i can relax and take a breath —  I can know then that I do know the things I know — and there are only two things I can really know and one is that I am beloved and the other is everythings fine — an I know dude an  — an thats all fine  — but I can not be ok an I can not stop even with what I know — until every single person is ok — until that happens I just cant be ok — an there you have it —

with much affection thank you

PIXIE  AN  DUDE

AND THEN THAT HAPPENED

October 12, 2016

th_unicorns006WOW Theres alot of stuff going on — isnt there — theres no sense in going over everything going on — I want to ask you something — have you noticed that its all negative and not nothing positive — so first lets get all that stuff to go positive — so it does not matter what it is so we will say this for everything — its opening alot of stuff — peoples eyes — the oppurtunitys that are coming about are endless — where as before shit started doing shit there really much actually going on — so lets just give this stuff a once over what do you say — ok so a plus we have going for us is this is some new shit — im serious check it out none of this stuff ever happened before — the united states government is actually some people or not — i keep hearing stuff that the government aliens — or the rich guys telling the government what to do are aliens — something like that — so any way whoever these guys are — they have been pretending to help us — we are the mass of humans here on the globe — the thing here is we are no longer anything but the enemy as well as criminals — trust me if you are not in on it or have any part in it — then it would be a real good idea if you know that you are the enemy and you are also up to some kind of criminal activity — which makes you a criminal — you know im kind of always been a criminal so this is an on going thing for me and quite a few others — but actually thats how it happens — cause i know your all thinking ive got my head up there real far — but its one day there you are and it doesnt matter if you got all a s or that you are a law biding citizen and you dont swear — and you dont even spit or if you go to school or have a really good job — it doesnt matter who you voted for it doesnt matter if you pay your taxes — none of your life up to this point an time makes any difference — because you are no more than a criminal and an enemy — now you want to know whos whos enemy an how did some thing be doing stuff an you be doing criminal stuff — an you didnt know any thing was doing any thing — well if you give someone the benefit of the doubt an its a mistake on your part — we thought he looked like a nice guy — and then that happened — so you see this is the part where nothing is exactly what its trying to be looking like an nobodys exactly who thier trying to be looking like they really are — an its looking like whats really going on is some thing totally else — so dude let me know a very long time ago — that when in rome do as the romens do — but make very sure you are the authority period every where ever — which we are not — but our really good friend is — oh we got some other stuff going for us to — we are way knowing better stuff than they are — i mean its kind of funny that an i dont care who it is — when someone is thinking they are knowing what thier doing when they do not have a clue exactly who they are actually dealing with — its like oh my god are these guys kidding me — anyway tell me what you think of this — a criminal is a bad mother — a criminal can do things they cant even imagine — criminals are the like supermen of everyone walking on this globe — its so exciting i got this one not very long ago — but yeah theres a group of us an that was news to me — i dont know everything but i know that we are originals and the rest are copies — ok to reveal some thing is mostly somebody gets to know some stuff — so theres alot of that going on in this blog an the best thing is if you know it your suppose to an if you dont your not — it have to say right here that dude is a bad mother f—-r — its not possible to say all the stuff but thats doing some shit when you can show shit for what shit is and then all of a sudden shit starts doing shit an thats the way its suppose to be going — and actually theres no other way — everybodies being who they are cause who else are they going to be been — oh really quick just so everyone knows — when all this started there was a count of all of us not only that but — when the smoke clears that count will be exactly the same — because everyone makes it — there will be no less but now the question becomes is there more — dont worry there are alot of levels of existence — we are only aware of the level we are on at the time — but i guarntee there are alot of things being plated out on every level of existence — i dont jump around on the levels but i can see and interact with them all — you see this is a multiy layered thing going on — with a bunch of stuff going on — the thing is the only things im allowed to know are — that i am beloved and everything is fine — and there you have it —

    thank you  
                  PIXIE  AN  DUDE

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September 24, 2016

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ITS TIME TO SMILE

August 22, 2016

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ITS TIME FOR LAUGHTER

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th_mermaidandunicornsOur natural medicine —- before pills and things — was and is smiling and laughter — smile a real smile right now — you can feel a smile through out your intire body — this is why we can smile and laugh — so we feel better — if you had a sick world you would find a world doctor an he would give the sick world laughter and it would get better — if we dont do anything else yet — we should start smiling laughing singing and dancing — we will start feeling better — everyone is saying we are awakening — actually we are preparing to become alive — something we have not been yet — we have been doing existence of which has several different levels — no one has died — we are jumping around on levels of existence — death isnt even a real word let alone some thing that is real — the definition is sleep rest — im sure to die you would have to be alive first — an we are not yet — the thing about existence is you are only aware of the level you are on — also the universe is in its final alignment — and all foundations are crumbling — we are preparing for life an dude is here or damn close — so basically every thing is as it should be really — to know the things i try to tell you — you have to unknow everything first — you have to build a new foundation — because as long as there have been humans — there have been humans trying to control other humans — way back when you can see religion and fear of the unknown — were the best tools used on humans — to make them affraid and then give them hope — look he died but its ok because he is with god — weather they destroyed or hid the knowledge — or if they never had it — you can know for certain the mass of humanity has been being controlled and today you can see humans the mass of humans — have been conditioned as well as controlled by other humans — you see if you kill anyone that would stand against what you say — well that makes you the authority –then if you separate humans like ok they live there and they live there — then you go another step — you put someone in charge in each area and make sure each area is completely different — say like lets make that area russia and that area japan — and you tell japan this is what and you yake russia and tell them its like this — its a better way to control them because they are becoming to many — we will make a map and draw lines to keep them where we want — we will keep them fighting for what we told them to believe — we will have some smarter some richer oh i know lets make civialiation and societys we will control everything they see and hear we will make police so we can route out and get rid of anyone that will threaten us — we will have to stage and have some innocent people hurt and killed to scare the rest — lets do this we will do things in the name of whatever — we will separated and become church and state that way we can keep them all in line — we will make sure they stay busy so they wont have time to ask questions we will make schools to condition them while they are young — we can make wars to control the populations all over the globe – we will stay in places of power and let them fight with each other over the scraps we throw – and paul when your writing that book the bible i dont like the peach lets make her eat an apple — an i think a month is way to long if god is all that — he should be able to do everything in a week but dont use week keep it days 7 days make sure they are affraid of the god guy — wee will give god a son and we will kill him and say hes coming back to show there is the father god — in case someone trys to say they are him lets tell everyone if he comes back its really the devil — oh did you make sure that devil guy is scarey enough or this wont fly — if theres a problem add a secvond half of the book — we will chain it to something so no one will really see it or whats in it until we get it finished an we will make a book for each area fuck then we can have holy wars we will have them fighting over their beliefs as well as the dirt they are on –we can make coins and stop the trading amounst them so everyone will need to get coins — we have to stop all the writing and replace it all with something else we can control — what about this we will make an alphbet and it will be letters abcd you know — we will call everything before us pagen and tell them that stuff is evil if it shows up — let me know when your bible is done so we make sure they can get one but we will have all the relious leaders tell them to only read what we tell them — dont worry the people will never suspect a thing — boy this is great isnt it — lets make sure to have enough wars so things can be hidden and memories arent talked about — be sure they population doesnt get to big or we wont be able to control them and they could turn on us — well its something like that is why you have to unknow what you have built your foundation on — because everything you know has been put there for you to know and you have been conditioned to reject anything else — well ill let this sit for awhile with you an tell you this — i want nothing from you — yes i would like you to see what im trying to show you — but for your own good not mine i already know this stuff — and there you have it–
thank you
PIXIE AN DUDE THE CREATOR OF ALL CREATION

ANDRE

August 10, 2016

Here I am up here on this mountain — this beautiful peaceful mountain  Andres mountain — I have all these thoughts and all these memories I have to deal with  — Andre and I became like soul mates — we looked out for each other — we played ,we laughed, we shared,we fought,we planned — we were neighbors but some how our houses became one house — friends became our friends — family became our family — stuff became our stuff — problems became our problems — somehow we became inter twined with each other — Andre is the sweetest man that I have ever met — though he could be menising he was not — this man did everything with his heart while his head kept him preoccupied with inventions — he had no opinions — he had no premeditation — he lived in the moment — he never met a person he did not like — he never spoke any ill towards anyone — if someone was being torn down in his presence he would stop it and defend them — he loved adventure — he had beutiful dreams — he was a musican he could play any instrument — but his love was the base — oh my god i heard him sing one day while singing into my friends phone for some app — you know I didnt say anything but what i heard was something not of this earth — now i heard him sing while practicing but this was different — I have never heard anything so beautiful in my life I have never heard anything like it — it was amazing – that was the only time I heard him sing like that — he played for me once and that was the same both were short but neither was from this earth — I will always wonder about that — he was a very quite man — he had a stillness to him that was calming — I keep calling him a man when in fact he was youth — we were like kids up here something no one ever saw — we played — we shared everything — he had girl friends I had boy friends — they all came and went — it would always come back to me an him — he was like this hip goth musican guy an I am like this fluttering white fairy bouncing around — we were probably to funny for words — we both have children that are always in our hearts and minds — we would talk for hours — sometimes we didnt speak at all — we both had loves of our lives his was his mama ,mine was casey — they were our angels — we planned how our houses would be and the mountain — what we would put here and what should go there — we always shared food and meals — he was going to plan our garden so we would always have food — we planned the band room under my house — we planned the gazebo between our houses — he kept a ladder behind my back porch to come up — he said we should just have a zip line — we planned a beach area with a hottub inside the palm trees — he said the neighbors are going to be jealous of our yard — now im a clean freak not really what it is is that im petrified of spiders so i make sure they have no where to hang out in my house — while he has a use for everything someday so it gets hard to move around in his house — I actually know the story of every nut and bolt the man owns ok — even if i didnt want to — he left to go visit with his kids which was something he thought would never happen — while he was there he went to a rehab — while at the rehab he suffered a heart attack and he passed away august 6th 2016 — there is so much that i havent written here but for now this is enough — and there you have it — goodbye Andre I will always love you and I will never forget you Pixie


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