I THINK SOMEONE MAY WONDER


th_unicorns-48YOU KNOW I DONT MEAN TO OFFEND ANYONE — BUT I HAVE HAD TO DEAL WITH SO MANY SO OFTEN — I HAVE HEARD ALL THE OPINIONS — ALL THE THEORIES — ALL THE COMPLAINTS — ALL THE WORRIES — I HAVE HEARD IT ALL FROM SO MANY FOR A VERY LONG TIME NOW — I HAVE DONE ALL I COULD TO TRY AND GET THIS CORRECT — AND SO FAR I HAVE ACCOMPLISHED THIS — BUT TO PLEASE EVERY ONE IS NOT WHAT I AM TRYING TO DO — I FOLLOW INSTRUCTION FROM GOD THE CREATOR OF ALL CREATION — I WILL NOT FOLLOW ANY MAN OR THAT OF MAN KIND — BECAUSE THERE IS NO ONE THAT HASNT DIED OR ISNT GOING TO — NO ONE HAS ANY ANSWERS TO ANY QUESTIONS THAT ARE IMPORTANT TO LIFE OR DEATH FOR THAT MATTER — THOSE THAT DO HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY CAN ONLY GO AS FAR AS THE BOOKS THEY HAVE READ — THEY CANT GO BEYOND THAT — I AM NOT TRYING TO PUT ANYONE DOWN IN ANY WAY — I AM NOT TRYING TO DISCOUNT ANYONES EFFORTS — I KNOW HOW HARD YOU TRY — I KNOW THE HARD WORK — I SEE EVERYTHING YOU ALL DO AND HAVE DONE — THIS IS EXCELLENT — I JUST WISH THAT I WAS GIVEN AT LEAST THAT OR ANY PART FROM ANYONE EVER — NOT SO THAT YOU THINK ANY BETTER OF ME — BUT SO YOU CAN GAIN A BETTER UNDERSTANDING OF THE THINGS YOU HAVE AND THE KNOWLEDGE YOU HAVE — SO YOU CAN GO FARTHER THAN YOU ARE — I NEED NOTHING FROM YOU — YOU CAN NOT BENIFIT ME AS I AM CARRIED IN THE PALM OF GODS HAND AND AM BELOVED BY HIM — BUT I ALSO WORK FOR HIM — AND YOU ARE PART OF MY JOB — I AM ONLY ALLOWED TO KNOW ONE THING FROM GOD EVER AND THAT IS EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE — OTHER THAN THAT HE HAS INFORMED ME — I AM NOT ALLOWED TO KNOW A THING — GO FIGURE — AT THAT TIME I TRIED TO QUIT AND TOLD HIM TO SHOVE HIS JOB — WELL THAT WAS SEVERAL YEARS AGO — SO WE KNOW WHERE THAT WENT — I CAN ONLY KNOW THINGS AT THE MOMENT I NEED TO KNOW THEM — HE TOLD ME ITS USELESS TO KNOW OTHER THAN THAT — I THINK THATS HOW IT GOES — NOW THE THING IS — I DONT GET WORDS I DONT HEAR WORDS — ITS JUST THERE IT IS AND I CAN SEE IT AND ITS GREAT BUT HOW DO YOU SAY THAT — SO I HAVE TO MAKE THEM WORDS SO I CAN BRING IT TO MY BRAIN AND KNOW WHAT EVER IT IS GOD IS SHOWING ME — THEN TO TELL YOU I HAVE TO TRY TO PUT WORDS THAT YOU WILL KNOW WHAT I AM SAYING — THE THING IS THAT WHAT I AM SHOWN I CANT FIND ANYTHING IN COMPARISION — SO I GET AS CLOSE AS I CAN — OR I CAN TURN IT TO KIND OF STORIES — SO THATS IT IN A NUT SHELL — TO ANSWER A COUPLE OF QUESTIONS — I AM 54 YEARS OLD I HAVE BEEN THIS WAY ALL MY LIFE — I WAS ADOPTED WHEN I WAS 24 HOURS OLD — THIS IS KIND OF A LONG STORY SO I WILL JUST GIVE DETAILS — I ENDED UP ONE OF THE OLDEST OF A FAMILY OF 11 PEOPLE — I WAS RAISED MOSTLY IN UTAH AS A MORMON FORCED TO DO EVERY THING BY EVERYONE — WE WERE POVERTY STRICKEN — FOR THOSE WHO DONT KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS — IT MEANS YOU HAVE NOTHING — FINDING FOOD WAS THE MOST IMPORTANT — SHELTER AND WARMTH FOLLOW — BACK THEN IT WAS LEGAL TO TAKE YOUR CHILDREN OUT OF SCHOOL TO HELP SUPPORT THE FAMILY — I WAS TAKEN OUT OF SCHOOL AT ABOUT THE THIRD GRADE — I WOULD HAVE LOVED AN EDUCATION BUT I NEVER GOT THAT LUXURY — I CAN NOT REALLY READ OR WRITE IN CURSIVE — I DO BEST WITH CAPITOL LETTERS — I DONT KNOW HOW PERIODS AN COMMAS WORK SO WHEN I WRITE I JUST TALK AND PUT LINES WHERE I STOP OR WHAT EVER — SO THERE YOU HAVE IT — I HAVE NEVER READ AN ENTIRE BOOK FRONT TO BACK — I GAVE BIRTH TO 5 CHILDREN 3 LIVED — I LOST MY YOUNGEST IN 1999 — I RAISED THEM ALONE AS THEIR FATHER WAS AN EXTREMELY VIOLENT MAN — MOST OF MY GROWING UP I PICKED FRUIT ETC — AND I HAVE ALWAYS WORKED AS LABORER IN ONE SENSE OR ANOTHER — I CONSIDER MYSELF A CRIMINAL AS I ALWAYS SEEM TO BE DOING SOMETHING SOME ONE THINKS I SHOULDNT — BUT I HAVE NEVER HAD FAMILY AS YOU KNOW FAMILY — NOR HAVE I HAD THE THINGS LIKE EDUCATION HOME CAR FRIENDS — YOUR STANDARD BACK GROUND AS YOU HAVE — SO I DO THINGS DIFFERENT THAN MOST — I HAVE SEEN PSYCIATRISTS ETC ALL MY LIFE AND I AM DIAGNOSED PSCSIFINIC — I AM CONSIDERED MENTALY DISABLED AS I CANT BE AROUND PEOPLE VERY WELL BECAUSE I HAVE A TERIFFIC FEAR OF THEM — I BELIEVE IT IS FROM THE THINGS THAT HAVE BEEN DONE TO ME BY EVERYONE I COME IN CLOSE CONTACT WITH — I AM TRYING TO WORK ON THIS — I AM TRYING TO DISCOVER IF SOME PEOPLE WONT HURT ME — I HAVE BEEN IN PRISON EVEN THOUGH I WAS INNOCENT OF THAT CRIME — I WAS A HOOKER BUT AT THE TIME I HAD 3 BOYS THAT HAD NO ROOF OR FOOD — I GOT MY EDUCATION WHICH STARTED IN A CLOSET FROM GOD — I WAS ALWAYS PUNISHED AND PART OF THE PUNISHMENT WAS BEING KEPT IN A CLOSET — I CAN TAKE PHYSICAL ABUSE THE BEST NEXT WOULD BE EMOTIONAL ABUSE — I HAVE THE MOST DIFFICULTY WITH MENTAL ABUSE — BECAUSE I DO HAVE MENTAL PROBLEMS MOSTLY BECAUSE MY ABUSE STARTED AT BIRTH — SO IN ORDER TO FUNCTION I HAVE TAUGHT MYSELF CERTAIN THINGS TO DO AND HAVE SET THEM TO RUN AUTOMATICLY — BUT WHEN SOMETHING COMES IN THATS NOT RECOGNIZIED— IT THROWS EVERYTHING OFF AND IT TAKES AWHILE TO GET BACK — AS I HAVE ALOT OF DIFFERENT THINGS GOING ON INSIDE — I HAVE THE GOD STUFF I HAVE THE NUT STUFF I HAVE THE FUNCTIONING STUFF — ANY WAY I HAVE ALOT OF THINGS TO DO JUST TO BE ABLE TO HAVE A THOUGHT — ITS NO BIG THING IT JUST IS ALOT OF WORK TO HAVE TO BACK UP AND RESTART — I AM NOT TRYING TO BE ANYTHING I AM ONLY TRYING TO HELP AND TO FOLLOW INSTRUCTIONS — I DONT CLAIM TO KNOW ANYTHING BECAUSE I GET WHAT I KNOW FROM GOD — I AM NOT BOTHERED BY MUCH AND THERE IS NOTHING THAT IMPRESSES ME — MUCH — WELL ANY WAY THERE YOU HAVE IT — I HAVE TO GO DO SOME LIFE THINGS RIGHT NOW I HOPE WHAT I HAVE PROVIDED HERE HELPS WITH SOME OF THE THINGS YOU MAY HAVE WONDERED ABOUT ME — I FIND ITS BETTER TO LISTEN OTHER THAN TO JUST START TALKING BEFORE YOU KNOW WHAT YOUR TALKING ABOUT — ALSO TO KNOW THAT I DONT KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT EVERYTHING — IT WILL BE MY SAVING GRACE IF WE EVER GET THAT FAR — IT IS NOT SO FAR OUT THAT THERE MAYBE ANSWERS TO THOSE QUESTIONS AND THERE COULD BE MORE TO EVERYTHING OTHER THAN WHAT YOU KNOW — AND IT COULD BE LIFE IS SOMETHING THAT WE ARE GOING TO EXPERIENCE — OTHER THAN THE EXISTENCE WE ARE EXPERIENCING — IT COULD BE WE HAVE BEEN INCORRECT ABOUT EVERYTHING — IT COULD BE THE TRUTH OF ALL IS AS CLOSE AS YOUR MONITOR OF YOUR SPACESHIP — IT COULD BE THERE IS A REASON FOR OUR BEING HERE AND IT COULD BE IF SOMEONE HAD A LITTLE HELP — THEY COULD EXPLAIN HOW IT ALL WORKS — AS WELL AS LET YOU ROCKET SCIENTISTS CHECK IT OUT — IT COULD BE THAT I IN FACT I DO HAVE A GOD CHANNEL — IT COULD BE WE WERE INTENDED TO BE HAPPY AND ENJOY ALL THAT GOD HAS DONE — IT COULD BE THAT GOD HAD A PLAN BUT SOMEONE DIDNT KNOW HOW TO READ PLANS — SO I WOULD STOP AND LOOK AROUND IF I DIDNT KNOW WHERE I WAS GOING OR WHERE I HAD BEEN — BEFORE I TOOK ANOTHER STEP — MOSTLY BECAUSE FOR ALL I KNOW I COULD BE MAKING A BIG MESS OF SOMEONES HARD WORK —

THANKS

PIXY AND GOD THE CREATOR OF ALL CREATION

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